The past couple of weeks have been tough. I found out that hitting my head in France caused more symptoms than I would have thought. I found this out on the first ride I tried to do. The bike felt so weird to me and I wasn’t able to ride like I used to. So it’s back to the trainer 1 to 2 hours a day in the sun. I can feel my brain getting better slowly but surely and I just can’t wait to race again. I think that is what makes it so hard for me, I can’t do my job, which I love doing, and I just can’t wait till I can race again. I go to a Neurologist today and he will give me answers, I hope. It’s sure been tough dealing with all this.

With a head injury it’s weird because one minute I was in Europe racing against some of the top cyclist in the world, now on a day to day basis, I’m fighting things I never had to fight against. I was going nuts last week so I decided to research “the left frontal lobe” which is the side of my head that I landed on. I was so glad to see that all the things and symptoms I was feeling matched up to what I found. It wasn’t just me going crazy, it’s something real. I am doing everything in my power to get back to normal. I can’t wait to just wake up and feel back to where I was again, but I know it will take time and patients. All of this is super frustrating. I was having a great early spring and then this happened. At times I feel depressed but right now I’m ok. It goes through waves and you never know when it will hit you, but I suppose that is part of the brain injury as well. I wish there was a magic pill or drink or something I could take to make me feel like I did before the accident. I just keep telling myself it will come back, and I know it will.

So since the accident a bit of toughening up, lots of riding the trainer, shark fishing (which has been so fun) and just trying my best to get back out on the road doing what I love doing.



After going through what I am going through I have so much respect for Saul Raisin who has had a 100 times harder fight and has knocked down all the brick walls in his way to get back to where he was. What in inspiration that kid is. For those of you who don’t know, Saul is a pro cyclist as well who had a hard crash last year where he hit his head and has come such a long way in the year since he has been out. He will be racing soon and back at it.

Thanks guys,

Steven